So I've been waiting since December 14th to confirm the pregnancy. I saw the doctor transfer our little one, but I just had to find out for real if he or she hung in there.
TWO WEEKS? Are you crazy? How can you tell an emotional, hormonal, impatient, soon-to-be mom to wait 2 weeks. UGH!
Each and every day, that's all I could think about. Am I pregnant? Am I not pregnant? Every moment of every day, there's a million and one things running through my head. I swear, the typical 24 hour days turned into 48 hour days. Each minute dragged on, and on! Every day I would post on my support group page that I didn't think I was going make it to the next hour. They kept telling me it would be here before I knew it! Well, it didn't feel like it!
The transfer was on December 14th, and I made it to December 20th before I emailed my nurse. I told her I still had 8 more days, and it was killing me! I asked her if the 28th was the earliest I could go in for my blood work to confirm the pregnancy. I told her I had no cramping, no spotting, and I didn't feel pregnant. I asked her if it was a bad thing. I told her I was an absolute mess!
Jan wrote me back almost immediately, as she always does, and she said oh my goodness, I would be a mess too! She informed me that if I wanted to, I could take a home pregnancy test, but they don't recommend it because there is a HUGE chance that you could get a false negative, or a false positive because your hormones are all out of whack!
She said, why don't we do the blood test on Monday, would that help you to relax a little bit?
Oh, a sigh of relief! 2 more days that I DIDN'T have to wait! But then I thought for a moment...Christmas was on Sunday, and I was off work Monday. Would Shady Grove Fertility be open for bloodwork? So I emailed her back, and asked if they would be open on Monday. She wrote back, and said oh no, the office is closed for the holiday.
UGH! Well, Tuesday it is! At least I could save myself one day of stress! She continued in the email, you're not going to get in trouble for taking a home pregnancy test, so feel free to take some home tests, if you absolutely HAVE to know. She said most people feel nothing at all, and that's totally fine!
So, I continue to wait, and wait, and wait, and wait! Sheesh! Aren't moms supposed to have patience? Maybe this is something I need to work on. I've only been waiting for 2 years for this day to come! So, maybe it's ok. Ok, maybe not!
So, Tuesday, December 20th, I continue to wait! Each morning I toss and turn in my bed. Is there a little baby in there? What am I going to do if there isn't? I have to start from scratch. Stop the shots, wait for the ok from my doctor, have a forced period, start the shots back up again, and so on, and so on, and so on!
So I wake up on Wednesday, then Thursday, then Friday it's a short day at work! So, after work, who heads to Safeway to pick up a set of pregnancy tests? This gal! I told myself I would pee on the stick until Tuesday right before my appointment. So I got home from work Friday, and asked Mike if we could head to The Main Cup for dinner. I called up Dori, and asked if they wanted to do a date night with us and Peyton. They were all in! It was a few hours to get my mind off of this 2 week wait! Thanks Danny, Dori, and Peyton!
So then I wake up the next morning, and it's Christmas Eve! One day closer to getting the confirmation! WAHOO!!!! We had an awesome day! We went over to Aunt Catherine's house, enjoyed family time, laughter, time with the kids, etc. Mike decided he was heading to the bar with the guys, and I decided to go to church with Pat, Aunt Catherine, Caitlin, Anthony, and Nonno. Boy am I glad I went! I knew after church the results of the test were going to be positive. I just had this feeling. I also thought that maybe my nose bleeds were a sign of early pregnancy, I was also convinced that my exhaustion was an early sign of pregnancy. It took EVERYTHING out of me to take a shower! I felt like I had just run a marathon! I've also been drinking water like it's going out of style! I used to drink a half a liter of water, and now I was drinking over 1 and a half liters of water. Church was exactly what I needed. The music was a delight, I prayed for our little family, and I enjoyed time with the kids! It was nice getting closer with Mike's side of the family.
We got home, and the guys made it home from the bar. Phew! And just when I thought our prayers were over, Pat blessed us with great results come Tuesday. What an awesome feeling to have the love and support from all of our friends and family. Dinner was awesome, and I couldn't stop eating the salad! The fried shrimp is always out of this world, and the homemade sauce and bread hit the spot. So all in all, Christmas Eve was awesome! I knew I could find something to get my mind off this test Tuesday!
So then came Christmas day. I woke up around 8, and headed downstairs to see my hubby. He was bored out of his mind since the gym was closed. We made breakfast, and enjoyed a nice brisk walk. It definitely wasn't a white Christmas, but the 50's definitely isn't bathing suit weather. We had decided these year since our IVF treatments were so expensive, we weren't going to exchange gifts with one another, or with family, and neither of us minded at all. I was standing on the stairs looking down at Mike, and I told him I was really anxious, and couldn't wait to take a pregnancy test. So, his response was, well go take one! Man oh man! Thanks for helping my bad habit out! You are supposed to tell me to wait! Hahahaha! So, what did I do? I ran upstairs to pee on that stick! I just couldn't hold out! I was going to wait to look at the test until Tuesday, and just take a picture of the results. So I placed the stick on the counter, and waited, and waited, and waited. My hand was over the test so I couldn't see, but I saw the timer stop in the top corner. Was the test done? So what did I do? I moved my hand to see. DOH!
I totally just cheated! I looked at the results! PREGNANT!!!!! WHAT? PREGNANT!!!!
OMG, I had to run downstairs, and before I could get it out, he knew by the smile on my face. I got a little choked up, and so did he. He looked me in my eyes, and said, you're a mommy now!
Merry Christmas to the Huntemann's! Santa was so good to us this year!
I took a picture of the results with my camera phone, and my digital camera. I had to share the news! I texted the picture to friends and family, and hadn't gotten that many texts ever! Love you guys!
What an awesome feeling, even though it hasn't hit me yet that I'm gonna be a mom!
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